Wooden

Here I am lying in the dark.
Sensations and senses heightened.
Embers of warmth filled me.
I was literally breathless,
I was sweating, moaning, about to pass out.

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Cluttered Life

It took someone to remind me of how I've forgotten about the things I used to enjoy and he got me thinking deeply....when did I lose myself? When did I lose the motivation to do the things I loved the most?

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Fighting Pain

In the stillness of this night, I let my thoughts fly, After each stroke of my fingers, the embers of strength showers down on me, I am ready to fight. My body and soul are weary, in pain and breaking But here I am, standing up. I am still alive…. – Rei Valentine/thereclusesoul 1:21 AM…

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I Am A Coward

June 3, 2020 at 10:02 AM your doctor called me to inform you that you are gone. The pain and this grieving is unbearable. While I am care giving, managing your pain, you have limited time left. His name was Sir Sliene Mimer. He’s beautiful, his spirit IS beautiful, he was 7 and this was…

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Corregidor: Island of Glory and Military History. What World War 2 textbooks don’t tell us.

I believe that Alliances change with the wind but we can never escape the fact that death is constant. All wars are needed to gain the justified peace that we need. If not for the wars, we will never encounter peace. We are all in a stand still, in a truce, but our leaders are the ones, not just us civilians to have full knowledge of the true effects of wars in every nation. How wars affect mankind, the world and most especially our souls.

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Meet my little girl, Ling.

I am well aware that she's an inanimate object but I feel quite relaxed when I look at her and see her (Much like how few of my friend who have babies and small kids feel when they carry their babies/kids after a stressful day at work. I dress her up, take her anywhere I go.

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Relationship & Marriage: Don’t be with or marry someone who makes your heart giddy.

Love is a fleeting emotion, it's a euphoric feeling, one of the best and gives you a boost of liveliness and energy. When we are inspired and in love, we give out our best, we dress up, move with zest and glow with inspiration in everything we do. However, once we attract the person we like, the question now is what happens when the giddy, euphoric feeling is gone? Unfortunately, most of the built up facade falls off, to some, instantly because the hunting and conquering season is over.

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Why is Death depicted as ugly?

I was browsing through the internet about life and death looking for a proper picture for one of my categories on this blog. I kept scrolling down the image views and there are common denominators. Most of the time, death is depicted either like a monster, a spider’s web, a skeleton, an old man with…

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The Irony of a Miscarriage (May 16, 2018)

When you think about a pregnancy and you think about the beginnings of a human being forming and all the things that have to go perfectly, it really and truly is a miracle when it happens. You have two sets of genetic material coming together that have to divide, and sometimes things go wrong. The simplest way to think about it is that miscarriage is sort of nature's way of making sure that a human being is compatible with life.

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The Violin

“Patience is a virtue, my love,” he whispered to her as he gently pulled the strings on her shoulder, like the delicate strings of his violin, her body created more excitement in him.

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Exhausted

I am so tired. I feel so worthless. I feel so alone. For how long can I act strong? For how long can I keep up this fake smile? When all I wanted is to scream! For how long will I be used by the people I love? I am so tired. My body is…

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