Exhausted
I am so tired.
I feel so worthless.
I feel so alone.
For how long can I act strong?
For how long can I keep up this fake smile?
When all I wanted is to scream!
For how long will I be used by the people I love?
I am so tired.
My body is in so much pain but I have to act strong.
They don’t understand.
They only like the good me.
They cannot love the ugly side of me.
They cannot love the weak and ill me.
I feel so alone.
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Dee Almeda View All →
Multi-conscious, Sensual, Intuitive and a follower of Goddess Inanna
A woman who values life in a higher divine level than the materialistic level of life.
Loves volunteer works for Non-Government organizations that supports life, animals, nature and spiritual growth.
Currently in a quest to achieving Multi-Dimentional Consciousness.
The Recluse Soul 
I once felt this way. That was many years ago. I met someone and learned more about myself. And met another and another until finally I met the love of my life. My life was miserable but now is blissful. It can change and almost by definition it has to change, although I remember it didn’t seem that way. Meet others. Help others. Consider volunteering.
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