Musings, thoughts and dreams – The Recluse Soul

Exhausted

I am so tired. I feel so worthless. I feel so alone. For how long can I act strong? For how long can I keep up this fake smile? When all I wanted is to scream! For how long will I be used by the people I love? I am so tired. My body is…

Two Years Ago and Reborn Dolls

It seems to me that the universe or fate gave me my children to save me.

I Am A Coward

June 3, 2020 at 10:02 AM your doctor called me to inform you that you are gone. The pain and this grieving is unbearable. While I am care giving, managing your pain, you have limited time left. His name was Sir Sliene Mimer. He’s beautiful, his spirit IS beautiful, he was 7 and this was…

Corregidor: Island of Glory and Military History. What World War 2 textbooks don’t tell us.

I believe that Alliances change with the wind but we can never escape the fact that death is constant. All wars are needed to gain the justified peace that we need. If not for the wars, we will never encounter peace. We are all in a stand still, in a truce, but our leaders are the ones, not just us civilians to have full knowledge of the true effects of wars in every nation. How wars affect mankind, the world and most especially our souls.

4-9-2020 Thoughts

In the human body, there are roughly 37.2 trillion cells working together round the clock to hold one person together. If we are composed of trillion cells, I just realized we should never feel alone because we are literally not alone. If our bodies are composed of trillion cells and 70% other microorganism and good/bad…

How to Poop Gracefully In Public Toilets

For someone like me, I look at pooping as a great thing in life. It's like falling in love. Giddy feeling at first, you have sweaty hands, the excitement builds and your hair rises as you anticipate, then relief once you let go and let it happen.

I can’t sleep – February 21, 2020

I can’t sleep. It’s tough. Last week, I was one of the chosen few to start a new division in the company I work for. Prior to that I was on the day shift. I’ve always been on the day shift because of my Lupus and heart problem. I was advised not go on graveyard…

Love that transcends time, How I was mesmerized by the story behind the Taj Mahal

“Not a piece of architecture, as other buildings are, but the proud passion of an emperor’s love wrought in living stones.”

– Sir Edwin Arnold

Meet my little girl, Ling.

I am well aware that she's an inanimate object but I feel quite relaxed when I look at her and see her (Much like how few of my friend who have babies and small kids feel when they carry their babies/kids after a stressful day at work. I dress her up, take her anywhere I go.

Relationship & Marriage: Don’t be with or marry someone who makes your heart giddy.

Love is a fleeting emotion, it's a euphoric feeling, one of the best and gives you a boost of liveliness and energy. When we are inspired and in love, we give out our best, we dress up, move with zest and glow with inspiration in everything we do. However, once we attract the person we like, the question now is what happens when the giddy, euphoric feeling is gone? Unfortunately, most of the built up facade falls off, to some, instantly because the hunting and conquering season is over.