I can’t sleep. It’s tough. Last week, I was one of the chosen few to start a new division in the company I work for. Prior to that I was on the day shift. I’ve always been on the day shift because of my Lupus and heart problem. I was advised not go on graveyard…
“Not a piece of architecture, as other buildings are, but the proud passion of an emperor’s love wrought in living stones.”
– Sir Edwin Arnold
I am well aware that she's an inanimate object but I feel quite relaxed when I look at her and see her (Much like how few of my friend who have babies and small kids feel when they carry their babies/kids after a stressful day at work. I dress her up, take her anywhere I go.
Love is a fleeting emotion, it's a euphoric feeling, one of the best and gives you a boost of liveliness and energy. When we are inspired and in love, we give out our best, we dress up, move with zest and glow with inspiration in everything we do. However, once we attract the person we like, the question now is what happens when the giddy, euphoric feeling is gone? Unfortunately, most of the built up facade falls off, to some, instantly because the hunting and conquering season is over.
People were asking me why? And I would just reply, "Because I am an Uber Hero." It's because fighting, being a life saver, a volunteer and going to work makes me feel alive.
Slow, baby steps, live life to the fullest but not the YOLO type. Life is the longest journey and we don't want to be caught unaware by doing YOLO.
Even if we have drifted apart, I just want to thank you for bringing joy and color into my life. may you be happy always.
The very first dream happened when I was 23, I saw a really bright light taking me from my room and up to another place. In that place I was embraced physically, spiritually and emotionally by a masculine force of light (I can still vividly remember the face of that man/being from my dream).
Lately, I feel so tired. I feel so sad, I feel so lonely. Yes, I do have my family and friends, I am happy when I am with them. I graduated two degrees and have my Masters, I have a great job with awesome perks, I can do or buy anything I want to. I HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED BUT I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO JUST GO SOMEWHERE ALONE.
Being married and having fertility issues is really devastating especially when I always wanted to have children. Infertility runs in my family (father side) where even my aunts, female cousins suffer from it, some have babies late 40s, some had miscarriages while most are childless. In my case, I used to have polycystic ovary (now…