I am so tired. I feel so worthless. I feel so alone. For how long can I act strong? For how long can I keep up this fake smile? When all I wanted is to scream! For how long will I be used by the people I love? I am so tired. My body is…
It seems to me that the universe or fate gave me my children to save me.
I deactivated Facebook for a 100 day social experiment and will document it daily to battle my Facebook addiction.
People were asking me why? And I would just reply, "Because I am an Uber Hero." It's because fighting, being a life saver, a volunteer and going to work makes me feel alive.
Lately, I feel so tired. I feel so sad, I feel so lonely. Yes, I do have my family and friends, I am happy when I am with them. I graduated two degrees and have my Masters, I have a great job with awesome perks, I can do or buy anything I want to. I HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED BUT I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO JUST GO SOMEWHERE ALONE.
When you think about a pregnancy and you think about the beginnings of a human being forming and all the things that have to go perfectly, it really and truly is a miracle when it happens. You have two sets of genetic material coming together that have to divide, and sometimes things go wrong. The simplest way to think about it is that miscarriage is sort of nature's way of making sure that a human being is compatible with life.
There are moments that whenever I am on tall buildings and high places, I have this urge to climb up the ledge, close my eyes, spread my arms and jump down.